SubhanAllah, today had been an eye-opener. I’ll start from the beginning…
I woke up, ate my sahuur and got ready to go to the mosque for Subh Prayers. Suddenly, there was this excruciating pain in my stomach. I decided not to go to the mosque and prayed Subh at home, asking Allah to relieve me of this pain. Alhamdulillah, it went away about an 1/2 an hour later:)
I had this group of friends which I realise that they are “iman reducing”. So, I have been distancing myself from them without their knowledge. As I said, they had been my friends so I tell them almost everything. So today, as I was resting my head on my table in class, they called out to me.(I was sitting on one end of the class and they the other-I was distancing myself remember?)
I was having a splitting headache so I just looked up and proceeded to put my head back on the table. Before my head reached the table, they asked me: Suhailah you __________________________(something shameful they know about me, (my previous self)) right?
Heres a tip: To avoid answering certain questions, act blur. It really works:)
So I acted blur and rested my head on the table, pretending to be asleep. The hurt of every one in my class knowing that fact about me that was supposed to be a secret really hurt. The shame…It brings back memories of how far I had been from Allah the previous years.
Suddenly this few verses came to my mind as I thought that this is all dunya, only Allah knows that I have changed and no opinion matters but His.
20: Know that the life of this world is but amusement and diversion and adornment and boasting to one another and competition in increase of wealth and children – like the example of a rain whose [resulting] plant growth pleases the tillers; then it dries and you see it turned yellow; then it becomes [scattered] debris. And in the Hereafter is severe punishment and forgiveness from Allah and approval. And what is the worldly life except the enjoyment of delusion.