Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah Wabarakaatuh
Firstly, I’d like to apologise that I have not been posting anything for such a long time…This year has been such a packed and insightful year, as I entered a new level of education and began to reflect on what do i really know about Islam? The way I pray, the way I fast, the things I do..why ? The things I do suuch as tahlil ceremonies, maulid an-Nabiy etc are they even allowed in Islam? I started researching deeply into this matter and realised that what I may thing is a small matter and is considered fine if I do it with the right intention, may be something that could lead to syirik. Hence, the constant emptiness I felt in the past is starting to be filled with awareness of every single thing I’m doing, that Allah gave me the capabilities and resources to research in turath books and to not just follow blindly whatever the society has been doing. It awakened in me a new sense of awareness and internalisation of who I am and what I am here for. I discovered a methodology that would really help me in disciplining myself to avoid manipulation of the ahkam and to stick to the path of the three best generations of Islam: the companions, the generation after that, and the geenration after that. Books have became my best friend as I spent hours at the library pouring over them, trying t absorb as much as I can. Yet, still finding myself, as I traveled deeper and deeper into the ocean of Allah’s knowledge, I find myself more and more overcome by the darkness of Jahl and increasingly aware of how little I know and how vast His knowledge is.
Alhamdulillah a’laa kulli ni’mah..
Hence, I’ve yet to have the time to go through all the posts here because I know that some of them may not really be accurate..I’d really appreciate it if anyone of you dear readers here to alert me if you come across anything inaccurate..wa jazakumullah khayr
Till then, pray for me to have time to post the valuable life lessons that I’v learnt this year
Thank you for understanding